Last weekend during a bridal shower for the woman who has been my best

Last weekend during a bridal shower for the woman who has been my best friend since the age of two, I suddenly realized that for as long as I have been dating the fact that I hadn't had a stable relationship was pretty pathetic. I started dating men when I was only sixteen years old and I am currently thirty two years old. So after sixteen years worth of men, what I still hadn't met the right man? That could not have been possible. Maybe I've just been on so many bad dates that I just somehow gave up looking for Mr. Right. Or it could have had something to do with the fact that at some point dating stopped being as exciting for me.

I remember how great dating was when your a teenager. I used to love going to school and being stopped in the hallway so some sweet boy could ask me out. Then I would run home call all of my friends and freak out over what I would wear. Dating boys was very sweet and always fun. Dating men is when everything started to get a bit more difficult. Men expected more out of the date like kissing or sex. Plus men are so much morearrogantthen boys. Boys are so sweet and lovable, especially the ones I would date. Now all I date are jerks with the occasional sweetheart. Was I attracting bad? Or are the sweetendearingboys I used to date changing into self absorbed idiots.

Maybe the problem wasn't that the men I was dating were changing, but that I myself was not changing. I mean today kids do stuff that when I was just kid I wouldn't be allowed to do until I was a late teen. Maybe everybody in the world is just evolving and I am still fantasizing about the same thing I have always wanted since I was just a little girl, my Prince Charming. I've been dating men now for basically half my life and to my best estimation I have dated at least four men a year. So after sixty four different men give or take a few dozen, I was still alone. I know I have to met at least a few of Prince Charming's cousins and maybe even a brother or two but not him.

I wish I was my best friend, I envied her. I guess some women are just better at dating men, while others are searching for Charming. Maybe Charming is just too big for me, maybe I should just learn to settle with one of his cousins.