What is the deal with swingers that is a question I have asked myself

What is the deal with swingers that is a question I have asked myself all my life. I never understood the desire and passion behind sleeping around with numerous people like a used a porn star reaching the end of her career. It was such a shame because most of the women I dated where all swingers deep down. Most of them tried to lure into it as well telling me how it's something beautiful and passionate about having sex with multiple people at once. It wasn't really a lovable career choice for me if you can even call it that. It's probably more of a hobby to some people.

It didn't matter if I had a girlfriend or not I would still get approached quite often by women who were indeed swingers offering me to tag along and get naked with them. I was terrified that every girl i would ever meet would deep down be into this and that was something I was really trying to avoid. I just wanted a normal girlfriend that just wanted to have sex with me and not 20 other people as well. Swingers to me were dirty creatures that had no love or respect for anybody apart from pleasing their own genitals. They were selfish and unhappy most of the time.

Maybe its this small ghostly town that I live in that just attracts all these weirdos to come out and play. Maybe this is the swingers capital of the world and everybody moves here that like it. Unfortunately if this is true nobody was kind enough to let me know and now I am surrounded by them 24/7. At this moment I am broke and I live in my parents spare bedroom and my bank accounts are empty. I wish I could win the lottery so I could move away somewhere and live in peace. I heard Portugal is a nice country and the women there are gorgeous and have loyalty and respect towards their men. I have been thinking about robbing a bank and running off with a few million dollars in unmarked bills and hopping on the first plane to Portugal where I would disappear forever. Hopefully I will never be forced to take that dark route and can earn and income the honest way like actually getting off my lazy ass and getting a job. Wish me luck in my journey for a better life.